I can recall lying in the bathtub at a very young age and leaving my body. Difficult to describe, it gave me a great feeling of freedom and safety from the physical family environment of chaos, uncertainty, violence, and alcoholism. Merely my way of dealing with a difficult situation, I was dissociating from my physical environment and connecting with my Higher Self as Spirit. Of course, I had no real knowledge at this time that this was what was occurring.Although I spent my time alone, I somehow knew I was not alone. Nor did I ever feel lonely. I now understand that my Ascended Masters, Archangels, and Spirit Guides were with me always, right from birth as they are for all of us.I started working at age twelve to remove myself as much as possible from the energy at home. No matter where, whether school or work, others would seek me out for advisement, support, and counsel. Although I was aware I was very responsible and mature for my age (not much choice there), the counsel given was very advanced, wise, and amazing. With no understanding, I had been channeling Spirit.I personally and willfully, from ego, chose relationships and situations that were very painful for me. My willfulness was somewhat of rebellion against the strict shame and blame of the religious dogma of the Catholic Church and Catholic education. I am grateful now for that foundation as I developed the acceptance of Yeshua, the Archangels, and other (saints) Ascended Masters. I refused to be confined by social agreement, popularity, or peer pressure. With dysfunctional parenting, what always ran in my background was "You will never be good enough."I had entered the Earth plane with no recollection of who I was in Spirit for several reasons. I chose it before coming here; I had lessons to learn/release from previous lifetimes; I wanted to experience duality (as many of us chose after the fall of Atlantis); and I was here to release for the collective consciousness. The painful experiences were also to acquire authority to step into the mission I was here to live. Mind you, I had no knowledge of any of this until the last ten years or so!I experienced abandonment, pain, betrayal, co-dependency, deception, fear, feeling unsafe, devalued, and disrespected, judgment, struggle, lack of consciousness, illusion of separation from Source, which empowers others to control and manipulate.As requested by Spirit, the sharing of my journey with you begins February 19, 2015. If I am guided to do so, the years before this will be shared in my next several books although I am clear, it is no longer important.This was one of, if not the most impactful event in my life. Experiencing emotional harm and trauma can be shoved down deep until you are clear it must be healed to live into your true self. But when everything is taken from you physically and you are immobilized, well, that's a whole other story.When we choose to clear our harm and trauma, raise our vibrational frequency, and step into our true selves, we live from the intuitive space of the heart, we love unconditionally, and we are assisted at every moment by the Divine. Life occurs with grace and ease. We are sovereign beings.I am humbled to facilitate all who are ready to step into their true self, connect with Spirit, and heal. Until then, I send you healing light and unconditional love.CAT
