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"Episodes of sick terror used to afflict my deepest childhood. I clung to Mum, obsessed by the notion of being stifled and tortured."I couldn't fathom what was wrong with me. The rooms were empty with dust-motes glimmering against the window. Only the hissing of the water-tank in the loft made a sound.For fifty years, I had believed my intrusive thoughts were attributed to warring parents and mental illness. In fact, something bizarre and horrific has happened to me of which I had remained unaware for almost five decades.This is not a biography but describes a gash running through the heart of my life. A diary I kept in the Seventies and Eighties has been used for this account.The subject of this book has been described accurately. Names of people, places and certain details have been changed to protect identities, and I am writing under a pseudonym. Madeleine Watson lives in the UK and writes under a pseudonym.At the age of 51, she discovered she had been repeatedly raped at the age of 3 by an uncle who shared her toddlerhood home.During oblivion, she kept a diary, wrote children's mysteries, novels and short stories. She also went to art school for 5 years. Unbeknown to her, clues to her horrific toddlerhood had seeped into her creations.How she finally learned the truth is described in her books along with further revelations. Having lived through this experience, she is able to describe what life has been like for someone whose toddlerhood has been brutalised prior to the dawning of her conscious awareness.