This story is true.This book is about my novel Nadia.I published this novel in the spring of 2015.By this time, I had written three psychological thrillers. Nadia is my fourth and final one.I first conceived Nadia in 1982. I was seventeen and had just begun art school. Thirty-tree years later, I would write it in a novel.The story seemed to bear no relevance to my life at all. A woman is thrust into a nightmare after a celebrity walkabout with a billionaire. Meanwhile, her author has a job, family, and a house.During the writing, I felt geared, prompted by a force. I had believed this to be routine writer's itch, but a year after completion, a scene within would open my eyes to something horrific about me.This 'novel' is not what I thought at all. Another novel hides beneath this one; two novels in one. I could not see this under-novel at all and is nothing like the story of my intention.Five years after beginning Nadia, I am ready to analyse it.I have been through this process three times already with my previous novels. All have been harrowing and all have given up hard truths.As this is a true story, I have provided diary entries as part of this account and illustrations to convey the intensity of my inner world. Madeleine Watson lives in the UK and writes under a pseudonym.At the age of 51, she discovered she had been repeatedly raped at the age of 3 by an uncle who shared her toddlerhood home.During oblivion, she kept a diary, wrote children's mysteries, novels and short stories. She also went to art school for 5 years. Unbeknown to her, clues to her horrific toddlerhood had seeped into her creations.How she finally learned the truth is described in her books along with further revelations. Having lived through this experience, she is able to describe what life has been like for someone whose toddlerhood has been brutalised prior to the dawning of her conscious awareness.
